This weekend I was in South Padre Island for our Young Life Regional Staff Retreat. At the end of such an eventful year it can be easy to get burned out and count down the days til the summer break. It can be draining being on the front lines of ministry spiritually battling daily for the souls of our kids. But having the privilege of retreating and having a prolonged time of rest and instruction with my Commander my Lord Jesus Christ is overwhelming. My soul was filled this weekend and I was reminded of the calling that God has placed on my life to be a witness to the things that He has done in my life and the lives of those around me. He has not called me to be perfect... thank goodness cause I am not. He has not called me to be the female Billy Graham or Corrie Ten Boom. He has called me to be Bekah and I need to rest in that reassurance that He loves me even when I fail or am tired.
I feel like the last few months have been an emotional roller coaster.
In December our Fort Hood team found out that our contract on Fort Hood to do ministry was going to change come May 31st. What that change was going to look like was still uncertain and how our lives and ability to do ministry were going to be affected was also unknown. I have struggled with trusting God to hold me and guide me even in the uncertainty. The only thing that He has told me as I beg Him for direction is "Dig In!" I immediately knew that I needed to press in with the middle schoolers and high school leaders that the Lord has placed in my path here at Fort Hood. I have been following the Lord and investing in them, teaching, encouraging and challenging them more than I have in the last two years. It is almost as if I feel an urgency to equip them with truth before this summer. I know that God has a reason behind telling me to do this and I trust that He has my friends in His hands and has mapped out every step of their future and will never leave or forsake them. I have been doing this all while struggling to trust God with my own future.
This weekend in South Padre as I stood on the beach alone in the middle of the night, I watched as the waves continually crashed against my feet. As each wave crashed against my feet the sand continually got sucked out from beneath them and I slowly but surely began to lose my footing. I was reminded that the Lord must be my firm foundation. I must trust that He is in complete control. I must be standing on the truth of His word and promises even as each wave of uncertainty slams against my feet. I have come to realize that as God says "Dig In!" He is not just talking about in ministry. He means those words for me as well. I need to dig in and not be moved though the earth may give way. I need to trust that He will protect my feet and guide them one step at a time. He only reveals what is necessary!! Boy am I being trained in patience.
This week is a pivotal one in God revealing the future He has for me. I ask for you to PLEASE join me in prayer!! Pray that doors would be opened. That I would trust in God and cast my cares on Him. That His Will would be DONE on Earth as it is in Heaven. That I would desire His will for my life and not my own!!
As soon as I know the next step You all will be the first to know!!!
"He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay,
And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm."
Psalm 40:2
"I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From where shall my help come? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel Will neither slumber nor sleep."
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